Secret Diaries of a Fangirl

Never have anything unofficial under your own name, 1st rule of the internet. So see...I am going to the job interview tomorrow. As a joke, I put the interviewing person's name to the almighty google. Now I know:

1. How does she look.

2. Is a year older than me.

3. Which schools she attended and that she finished college at the age of 27.

4. That she likes IT Crowd, Futurama and Twin Peaks, her favourite character is Sheldon Cooper and her favourite movie is 21 grams.

5. Likes the same tv station that I do, hates the same politican.

6. Has a blog in English.

Now I know all that, what do I do with it?

If she runs google search on my own name, she may find out what tv shows I like on facebook and that I run a program line at one convention and I happened to be successful participant in several math contests back in 1999-2003.

So I've spent most of the night today sending out my resume. I made sure to personalize each of the emails, using the name of the contact person, the company and the job description, pointing out my skills in the relevant area. I think that at this point I am starting to lie and exagerate, telling myself that I can always catch up as I go. It is hard to find even a temp job. However I do not want to work night shifts anymore, nor I have the need to listen to "great" ideas of a stupid person aka our boss, the author of the quote "The best view of Grand Canyon is from Canada" and with creative English.

Anyway, I've already found replacement for myself, all I have to do now is to find a job and then inform my boss. She better let me go and not hold me here for months, as it would mean hell on Earth for the both of us. I think that we are civilized people and seriously, three months notice? No way I could be held here for three more months.

I don't think I am going to be able finish the uni, after four years, I think it is time to admit to myself that the battle is done and the war is over and I lost. It is just too hard trying to juggle full time job and the university's requirements. I am too old and too tired and I just give up, right here, right now. I cannot do that anymore. Plus it would mean staying at this job if I tried one more time and I know I'd fail anyway. I just can't ever win, can I?

Three more hours before the shift is over, so I am going to work on this LJ layout, ok?

The fact that I watch BtVS even though I really dislike Buffy, the fact that nothing on Earth seems to be more pathetic than Buffy/Angel, the key fact that there is never enough Spike scenes or that there is never enough scenes with Spike mocking Angel?

BTW, is it possible that this somehow chubby guy with soft high pitched voice is really the cool and tough agent Booth? God, he had grown somehow. He seems taller and better muscled on "Bones". Anybody else being wtfed about the Bones finale?

Anyway, any suggestions for my business name? So far we came up with "transwarp" with the motto "we translate your documents quicker than the speed of light". Lame.